I always seem to struggle with what all to share with everyone. Whether it is subconsciously done by myself or by others, there always seems to be a set of expectations that need to be met for people serving overseas. However, I've gotten to the point where I've realized they're simply not realistic and I need to stop allowing them to influence me... So, I hope you will allow me to be raw n' real with you in my blogs as I share a little bit of what life here is truly like. Though the weeks may be planned and scheduled, the days are far from predictable. One day I might be asking God to speed the process up a bit, and then the next be begging for a moment to simply catch my breath. As someone who strongly dislikes routine and loves change, I never thought I would be desiring for more consistency in my life... Not only have I found that the days are never consistent, but that the people aren't either. I have been told that building community here (outside of your ministry) is one of the hardest things to do -- I've begun to notice. Though I have met a lot of amazing people and have been blessed with spending time with them, it's simply not like it was in the States. People here always leave... and because of it, it's easy to become closed off in forming deeper friendships, knowing there could be yet another goodbye. I had someone tell me the other day that even the kids are "used to" people walking in and out of their lives. If you ask me, I don't think it will ever be something I get used to... Something else I may never get used to, is this whole not "fitting in." I've never been one who wants to be like everyone else or do what everyone else is doing, but not being accepted has become a whole new reality for me. Seeing the US from the outside, you see more of a melting pot - diverse culture, religions, race, values, etc. Here though, besides a small handful of people from surrounding countries, you can expect everyone and everything to be Thai. So to say that I stick out like a sore thumb is perhaps an understatement. So, as much as I have settled into my life here and have made this my "home," I'm always going to be a foreigner that never fits in... Well, i guess I was born to stand out in more ways than one anyway. ;) With all that being said, you may ask me "Why are you even there if it's this difficult??" Here is where I get to introduce to you the joy of my struggles. :) The women at the HOS, although having every reason to be skeptical of me, have welcomed me into their lives and are trusting me to walk along side of them. Every day I spend with them, I get to see more of how God loves us regardless of the past we have and the struggles we're currently going through. Many of the women's stories and the various trials they are facing are enough to make you cry with them, yet their desperate longing to give their kids a better life full of love and hope is enough to make you fight for them. I kind of see it like this: As I take "Asian selfies" with one of the girls, put together a scrapbook with another, help one make jewelry to sell, teach some of them English, sit with a few on the floor to make food, encourage them in their walk with the Lord, teach one how to use the computer, dance and sing with another, pray with them in the hard times, and play with all the babies -- I can't help but think, Yup. This is my family. And I would do anything for them! Seeing them fighting to be the best moms they can be for their kids; encourage one another and love each other like sisters; grow closer to God as they seek Him every day; and seeing them and their kids experience hope for the first time in their lives... Yea, I think I can safely say my struggles here are well worth it! *Keeping you in the loop: I had a minimum goal of financial support that has been met (Praise God!!!), but I'm realizing the need is so much greater!... God is doing amazing things in and through HOS, but every month we have just been scraping by to make ends meet (diapers, clothing, childcare, food, etc). Any support (whether one-time or monthly) is more of a blessing than you know! Please prayerfully consider supporting this ministry that is making a huge impact in the lives of many women and their babies. Also, the need for a car is still around $8-9,000. Not only would it be safer for me, but also for the mothers and babies that need to be taken places (babies on motorbikes -- scary thought!).
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Support:If you would like to financially support me or HOS, you can go online and give:
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